HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOYFRIEND!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!((:

today is boyfriend's birthday! but too bad he is in camp, if not, i'll be able to meet him. Over the weekend met zul to pass him something to give to boyfriend in camp. I pity boyfriend because he did not managed to celebrate his birthday with his family over the weekend coz of guard duty. but i called him&talked to him for hours over the phone(: imy.

waiting for zul to call to tell me how it turns out. zul said he look very gay handing him a heart shape tin. but thank you soo much zul for agreeing! haha(: i'm excited. hahaha..


his birthday card(:


his birthday cake. it smell&look very nice larh.. i wanttt.. hahah!


the gift!

Hope he get to enjoy his birthday in camp! I'll meet you over the weekends k, boyfriend?(:

&i'm looking forward to tomorrow's outing!

yes. yes. yes. i managed to catch NDP 2009(: thanks to Ramizah! i'm lazy to upload the 100+ photo. more on fb. I nearly missed out on my opportunity to watch. haha. In that fateful day, i was out giving tuition to my students. i reached home about 2+. drain out from the 4hrs tuition. I was tired; drained out. &didnt realise ramizah msg-ed me.

At around 4.30pm, i got the nagging feeling that someone is looking for me&went to check my phone. &yes, i noticed her msg screaming out loud! haha! asked her whether she still have the ticket&if i can make it on time. rush rush. went to iron cloth. &zoooom, i was out at 5.15pm. damn fast larh. haha(: lucky for me, cab was in sight. cabbed down to floating platform for a cost of $28. tsk tsk. hole in a pocket!

upon reaching, jia huey went out&pick me up. so nice of her. went to grab the goody bag before heading to meet nadiah&ramizah. we were lost for a moment. haha. the parade was fun with packs of adventure. it ended at 830pm. went home, accompanied by boyfriend(: we talked for hours as he was on guard duty.


the weather...


me&ramizah


those who went(:


this looks nice(:


firework of the day..


&again..

i think i'm having a recurrence of my sickness! gosh. i have finish all my medicine. don't tell me i have to see the doctor again? yeah, my cough is still there, i realised. &&i have finish like two bottle of cough syrup. sheesh.

so, let's see. On wednesday, i went to meet Ramizah&jh to discuss about some alumni stuff. Only the three of us was there. It was quite tiring thinking of what to do for the alumnus. I think i talked a lot during that period of time! haha(: After the meeting, i went to buy my first Mr Men&Little Miss capsule at 7-eleven. It really make my day! haha(: ramizah was saying that me&jh was like small kids. ohh yar.. when i opened my capsule i have Miss Sunshine!(: happy. went home to pray. then out again to teach tuition. tiring but the money is worth it! haha(:

ohh yar!! i have bought some things for me to start my school days with! haha(: i know that i'm going to be a teacher&such. but still, i am a student! so yeah.. dad gave me money to buy my bag. so, i was suppeerrr happy that day coz it has been awhile since i receive money from parents. i am now financially independent. which is sooo tough. so yeeahh..


Miss sunshine&Mr happy(:


My bag(: nice?


my metallic pencil case!(:

if you have been following in facebook&tagboard, you'll realise that i'm actually trying to run away from things. little things make me happy nowadays. maybe because of its simplicity in life. i tried not to think of all the other stuff that i'm suppose to be thinking.

lee: heh.haiyo gossiping about what?ustaz i cakap,mengumpat adalah sama sepertin berzhina (did i spell it right?!).you can gossip to me,but i shall listen and not comment,so techincally you're doing the evil deed!(: & hello i really think we should meet and talk,about our future plans,boyfriends and the list goes on,but not gossip..heh.but anws,you know to text me when you're feeling low.i''ll try my best to help you(:

you see, sakinah has always been the one who give me advise that sunk deep into my head. she has always been the one who care to meet me. & a lot of my other friends also.. haha.. but the guilt if i cant meet them always linger.

&i dunno why. the silent of everything is getting into me. i'm getting tired of this. but yet. i know what is happening. but you pushed me away. something you never did before. &a few days back, i just thought it was a fairytale. you&me. i'm lost for words.

kata-kata itu adalah satu pengganti bagiku;
tetapi kau hilangkannya dariku...

wait. i'm excited. so, i'm going to rant everything in my thoughts first before heading off to some serious business. k, *breathe*. let's hope i'll calm down soon. haha!

let's see. i feel much better typing this down! hahaha!(: boyfriend's little brother add me on facebook TWICE! boyfriend don't allow me to accept): coz i'll be posting about my life&such per on facebook. &he don't want his brother to know about some things. so yar... he is on my pending friend list. to sidetrack, his bother is handsome! awww. really. haha. ok, he is as handsome as boyfriend(since everyone seems to claim so) or a little bit more. haha. so, he just change his display picture! to him&his girlfriend. i doubt boyfriend knows he has a girlfriend. &the brother is wearing contact. so, he looks much more handsome. yar... yar.. &i so WANT to see the picture. i want to see whether the girl is pretty=p that's not my main reason haha(:

seriously, the brother looks a little bit like boyfriend in that picture. just want to make sure it is not boyfriend with another girl! hahaha! ok. nonsense. please, can i just add him? what do you think? &boyfriend is not talking to me): coz he is tired from his training&all the stuff happened inside that made him do not want to talk to me. k, i'm sad&angry about this. buttttt... the desire to know more about the brother offset this! things to note: if you make me angry, tell me an interesting gossip that i want to know. i'll forgive you. haha(:

k, i'm kpo. maybe a better word would be concern. the brother has some problems, i think. haha! but if i do add him as a friend, maybe i'll post his picture&you can judge for yourself. &&i think the 3rd child usually is different from the rest of the siblings! hmm.. maybe talking to him would be interesting. haha(: but, he is way too young for me. sec 3, i think. so, don't worry. i wont fall for the younger brother! i'm sticking to the older brother. hahaha(: damn, i'm still excited about this! haha(:

a few hours later... i went back to see my friends list coz my student add me. haha. i think he heard my excitement! hahaha(: he changed the picture&it is so much clearer now. the girl is not pretty like me. tsk. disappointing. not fun anymore):

kk. back to some serious stuff. haha(:

went out yesterday with AMIRAH! it has been ages since i saw her. we have been talking on the phone. but yesh, no meet up. &since her school holiday was extended due to H1N1, she accompanied me to buy boyfriend birthday present. k, thank to her, i spent a lot! haha!(: it was such a nice time, going in&out of the shop trying out stuff. we went to puma to buy boyfriend something=p went to f21 to buy some accessories, went to mark&Spencer to buy sis cookies and went to some shop to buy long necklace.. ohh yar! went to jp to buy bag pac! amirah, i still haven't buy mine! i'll tell you which design i buy k? haha...


me(:


our meal.


that's her!


her again..


next time, let's go here again!(: nice stuff right amirah?


boyfriend birthday pressie..


me&her!


again..


i love this pix!

me&amirah agreed that we will go shopping again the next time. wait till i have enough money first! so, i don't keep having to think twice about buying stuff! hahaha(:
blogger don't allow me to upload photos):

i went for night classes yesterday&my ustaz said this- "Nasihat itu adalah suatu hikmah. Hakikatnya semua datang dari Allah. Jadi doalah kepada Allah untuk mendapat pertolongan" quite meaningful, i think(:

I'M BACK! I'M BACK! I'M BACK!(: Hahahha.. yeah, i changed my blogskin. but it is not complete yet. but, i want to blog. &i cant stand the previous blogskin anymore. so, here i am. let's see if i'm hardworking enough to change those minor details that i intended to do=p

actually, i am recovering from flu&cough that have been with me for 2 weeks. no, it is not the H1N1 that is going around in the news. don't get me started on the events that occur when i see the doctor. it will just get me fuming maddd! so yeah..

i know i'm sick. but still, i went for the band camp that occurs on Monday (22/6). Before that, i went to take my english Test with Ramizah at some Orang Grove Rd. It was insulting. i mean the way they asked the question. we met one guy who issuper friendly to us. mayb due to the fact that me&ramizah have been talking to each other all the time. haha(: after the test, went straight for band camp.


it was a creepy place.


behind the bushes, we found this gate...

Upon arriving, wl asked me to take the NCOs for games. with my bad cough(luckily for the chrystanamum drink), i went to take them for captain ball. mrs chee said i am like the mother hen when i was instructing them to do things! wad sehh): hahah!

night came. the alumni went to order pizza for night time(: but the order came in wrongly&the guys went to MacD at pioneer mall for more food(: wl&us was planning for the fire drill. haha. had fire drill with them. seriously no comments about that. &went off to eat. we were sitting in a big circle, eating all the food. quite funny. with all their stupid antics.


our food(:


sleepy+hungry faces


you see sakinah face all hidden up.


this was nice..


you can see how happily syahrul eat..


the garlic bread was nice!!


see the two of their reaction. cannot take it siak.


bangla cleaning up the place. hahah!


u can spot the lazy one. haaha


syahrul was showing how pondan he is. hahha..


this look contradicting.


&all of them start trying out.. haha!

so there. after the night of eating junk food, i wake up at 3 in the morning to vomit it all out. syahrul was making stupid remarks&i ignore him totally. hahha! &the best part, was waking up. apparently, syahrul was singing at the top of his voice to wake everyone. sakinah was already up waiting for me to go bath. ramizah was irritated by syahrul singing and wake up. i was sleeping deadly at the mat. hahaha! until sakinah wake me up slowly. &force myself to wake up..

so yeah. something meaningful that happen to me. ohh yar, i went to watch transformer 3! it was nice(: the robots are all so cute! &hanis was scolding me for shouting in the cinema&asking him stupid question. it was quite fun for a moment.

busy next week(: so, maybe i'll update more when i come back!

do you miss me?
i hope so...

heyy..

i know i hve not been updating. just feeling a bit lazy to update. hahah(: i'm going away for awhile. yeah. maybe quite long. haha(: back with updates? maybbb.. haha! i dont like my blogskin now. wait for me to change for a new one once i return! Take care ppl!

yesterday, i was out for the whole day again! saturday always seems to be my marathon day. early in the morning at around 10am, i went to meet boyfriend. i was abit late. i went out of the house at 10am&boyfriend was already waiting for me. so, feeling abit rich, i took a cab down as i do not want boyfriend to wait for that long(: met him&we tour JP for awhile before heading down to vivo to shop!(:


me!


oew to vivo.

my stomach was growling as i didn't manage to sip my strawberry milk in the morning! boyfriend decided to head down to the puma shop at vivo first as he saw the advertisement at the MRT station. he ignored my plea to buy the strawberry milk): so, we went to find the shop&there was a SALE!(: we managed to find nicer shoes there. boyfriend was contemplating between the shoe on SALE&a new arrival shoe. hahha(: i asked him to buy both=p


the two different shoes.


contemplating.

finally, he bought the new arrival shoes which is more expansive after hearing to my analysis. hahah! then, we went to see the puma shirt on sale. there was this nice shirt that i so like the texture! haha(: asked him to try it on&bought him for his birthday gift. haha!&his birthday is like TWO MONTHS away!=p but i like it so despite the steep price even after the discount. fly away my money. haha!


shopping!

we went to FOREVER21 to meet celeste. after so long, then i managed to see her. chatted for awhile only as she was working. &the clothes there are so damn nice. maybe i should go shopping there, one day! hahaha(: after meeting her, went to LJS to eat. tried out their new set meals. &we managed to find some new restaurant to try out! next time k boyfriend, when both our pay comes in(:


mine(:


boyfriend.


his is not nice):

after eating, we went to page ONE to buy his book of the month! haha(: we spent so much time inside. &there was a book promotion for A LITTLE BLACK DRESS. so, i bought 2 books &boyfriend bought two books. i'm going to start reading it! &maybe, i should borrow amirah's twilight series book also! omg. so much reading to do. &i still have my koreas drama to watch! hahaha!


books(:

too much side track. back to the topic.

bought donoughts for family&rush off for my religious class. &boyfriend went home to sleep. we'll meet again later(:


(:


too much shopping!


worn out.

after class, brother speed off to sent me to NTU Auditorium. me&boyfriend decided to go to JJ talentime. those who deserved to win did not win. &the standard of talentime is too low this time round. &i was criticizing their shoes to boyfriend. haha! seriously, their outfit was not nice&their shoes look so uncomfortable. that totally put me off bcoz their striking white polished shoes can be seen. haha! boyfriend was complaining to me about their weak vocal. haha(:


talentime(:


NTU auditorium


he was wearing the shirt i bought for him!!(:

it was quite fun. forgot the way to go home. haha! there was a short cut some where that lead to my house. so, we ended up taking a bus halfway&walked home. the park is well lit now(: i like. haha! &reach home fast.

thank you for that fairytale date(:

wheeew. i think i have gained weight over the days! i have been eating good food over the weekdays due to the treat i get from my colleagues! thank you soo much to Ms Wong and Mdm Keh(: i enjoyed the outing with all of you!

on Wednesday(20/5), Ms wong decided to give us a treat. In school, i have been helping her to finish her work. I helped her calculate the marks&key it into the school cockpit. It was a fun job though it was a laborious one. I managed to see the whole picture on who pass and fail the subject. I was so proud of my 2E class!! Although they keep on playing around&make me super angry at times, they managed to do well!(: One guy even wrote down all the help tips that i asked them to memorize. haha. &so, Ms Wong rewarded me....

After school, we rushed off to the school gates&cab down to JP. it is a long story on why we cab down! haha(: me&siti was already full from our brunch. but it is rude to turn down an offer. so, we headed down to swensens to have lunch! we were eating soooo slowly! haha(: but managed to finish up all the food! haha..


a combo set that we all shared.


the interns(:


see how happy i was.

after that long lunch we had at swensens, we turned down the free ice-cream that was offered to go to haegan daz(correct spelling?) for dessert! actually, siti&ms wond wanted to walk around first. but i was on the phone&went straight in to the place. hahaaha! sat down&had a hard time to choose which ice-cream coz all look soo nice!((: finally decided to make our own ice-cream! fun fun fun.


my mentor teacher!


their menu look so nice!


me&her(:


i do not know what i was doing but i was playing around with her! haha(:


us(:


ms wong dessert!


mine look yummy rite(:


that's siti. &i took her strawberry! haha!


me(:


terrorizing the dessert! hahaha!


to end off the day(:

i would just like to thank Ms wong for the treat&all the fun we had! haha(: i was like one of her students, playing around with her in class&in the staff room. i had a nice time under her&she really give me a lot of guidance along the way. although we were not very very close, but i still like the way we play around&work together(:

&to end the day with a smile, boyfriend get the nights out! so, when i heard about that, i went down to his house to meet him!(: it has been 1wk+ since i saw him. met him for about an hr, then parents come to pick me up): we'll meet again k, boyfriend?(:

on thursday(21/5), it is the MARKING DAY!(: so, teachers are allowed to dress down. wore tee-shirt and jeans to work. breakfast was provided by the school!(: slack in school as there was nothing much to do. so, me&siti went around to help other teachers to key in the marks&total up the mark of their exam scripts. at least we helped(: but still we had time to play around with our restaurant city! hahaha(:

that day, mdm keh(my fav colleague) decided to bring us to town to eat! she belanja us in some indonesian restaurant. we ordered too much food&could not finished up all the dishes that we ordered although it was super delicious! haha(:


mdm keh was driving us there.


siti.


i was playing around! haha(:


the restaurant.


they serve very nice keropok! you can see how siti eats it!


mdm keh(:


out of many dishes.

after lunch, we spent some time in the toilet as mdm keh wants to make up abit. hahah! she is so vain lahh. haha! so we cam whored a bit in the toilet before heading down to far east to shop around! things there are getting more&more expensive! hmph. didnt manage to buy anything. didnt see anything i like! haha(: but mdm keh bought an expensive jacket though. yeah yeah.


toilet break.


that's wad we are doing.


us.

most of the pix is in siti's camera. going to get from her soon. yeah(: thank you mdm keh for the treat! i will certainly miss you when i end this internship!): miss our toilet break&talking about what-nots. thank you for teaching me photoshop! &cheering me up when i am down. let's keep our trade secret a secret! hahaha(:

&today, went shopping with parents! father belanja makan again. i'm getting sick of new food. haha! &father bought me a billabong bag(: thank you so much. -tired-

I was looking for a suitable picture to start off the post. &i guess, this picture is suitable enough(: so, go grab your literature hat&infer what is this picture is trying to say. haha. as promise, i'm here to update about the outing i had with this girlfriend of mine!

Date: 110509
Venue: BL control station
Time: 1000
Girl: Siti NurShakina(:

As usual, shakina is late. went to singapore post first to become my sister's postman. she was delivering a parcel to her friend! &she asked me to send it for her. so lazy to go to post office. haiyo. so, the plan was changed. instead of eating breakfast at JP, we went to Plaza Singapure to eat our breakfast cum lunch. shakina was eating the lunch meal&i was eating the breakfast meal.


attire for the day(:


happy nah dapat makan.


breakfast(:

we had a mini toilet break before heading around to shop. we have been talking all the way. i miss her! we catch up all the way from the 6 months ago since we last met. next time, jgn gini lagie k shak(:


dgn khusyuk, she dry her hands=p


us(:

we went to the scrapbook store that me&sakinah last time went. that place still amaze me&make me want to grab everything that was in store. I'm collecting stamps to fund my workshop courses! still short of how many stamps. going to spend again in that shop, i think=p haha! so, shakina agree with everything that i want to buy. almost everything. that was very bad. luckily i still remembered that my pay is not in yet&the measely amount left in my account. haha! i controlled myself but yet, i bought more than expected! haha(:


things i bought(:

after that, we heed down to esplanade to lepak! haha(: we talked and talked about i-do-not-know-what. but it was soooo fun! we cam-whore&played around. i was always being reflective when i am with her. i do not know why. haha(: thanks soo much for the outing shak!


on the way to esplanade.


look alike kan? haha(:


retarded!


act cute. but we are already cute wad(:


to end off the day..

thank you shaq for the outing! sayang kau. let's meet up again k? i will not be soo busy during my university days, i hope(: & i start school only in august. i'm retiring(mcm tua nah gitu) end of this month. a bit busy in june. you know, i know. shhh. let's play around next time(: haha!

I'm feeling out of shape yet again. yes, shak, i will send you the picture for our outing soon&will blog about it. maybe at night when i'm using my house computer. for now, i'm having a headache on what a life i had now. is it i'm thinking too much&being pessimistic? or is it the situation around me caused me to react this way?

i used to see a ray of light...

I used to think pretence is my forte. hiding my feelings from my friends, smiling my way out of misery where no one will really know the meaning of the smile. this happen when i finished my secondary school life. trying to adapt to a JC life with no close friends being in the same JC as me just make it harder. thanks to shaleihin who was there for me. he make me fit into college life easier. I made friends and some close friends. or maybe too close for comfort?

the eagerness is no longer there...

JC life ended as soon as it began. &again trying to adapt was hard. maybe harder this time round? taking up a job that will lead to who i want to be in the future. the adorable kids that bring so much fun&yet stress to you. i am happy. but the fact that i'm losing my friends or drift away from them just destroy that instant happiness that i have. i'm trying too hard.. i havent had a real laugh for ages. i havent had a reallly reallly good time to last me through the bad times. why? maybe each are busy with their own stuff.

who ask you to try so hard?
that's your problem...

i don't want this things to affect you. maybe i failed to be who i used to be. i can no longer hide my emotions from people. i'm trying. but i think it is not working. for who i will be? only God knows. i'll try. if i want for you..